Exactly still left 4 hours for the year of 2011 and then is the time for all of us to welcome 2012!!! Since today i had experienced such a good adventure, finally let me really think back what i had done in the past and so this time really let me awake from all these!!! Since last week, i had told my friends that i want changes in myself for the 2012 and so below are my resolutions for this new brand year:
1. Do exercise after finish work.
2. No more online after finish work.
3. Just can watch drama for not more than 2 episode.
4. Read more and learn more.
5. Sleep earlier.
6. Think openly, don't always upset or get angry because of small matter.
7. Save more.
8. Join Buddhist activities.
9. Control my bad tempered.
10. Bring parents for travelling.
Really hope that i can achieve all the above resolutions throughout the year. Should take every things happen as an opportunity for me to learn.
p/s: May my family, friends and everyone happy and healthy in this 2012!!! ^^
Saturday, 31 December 2011
New Year's Eve
Today is a superb damn bad luck to me!!! In the morning,im still in a superb good mood drive back to ipoh till i almost reached Bidor, my car broke down!!! Luckily i went inside to rest place near bidor and once i went inside, i cant move my car anymore and there was so much smoke out from the car. Before i went down from car, the people all came and helped me to see what had happen. There are some people who want to earn money and so try to cheat me but luckily got a chinese uncle, he so good that he told me what should i do. But too bad that i had followed what that bad people told and so i called someone from Bidor to come but in the same time i called Plus people come as well. In the end, there were quarell between us and the Bidor people who want to earn money from us. Most lucky is that my friend dad know some people from Bidor and so i managed to find people to tow my car back to Ipoh. On the way back to ipoh, i try to control my tears and i could feel that how sad and scare i felt. I really really very scare and feel so sorry to my friend for causing her need to accompany me and went through all these.
When back to home, im so bad mood but my mum keep on asking me, make me damn annoying and so i said i want to sleep. I know my behaviour is very impolite but i really very very sad and bad mood already, there are still lots of problem i need to solve like i need to think how to go back to KL, how i need go to office without car!!!
Because of i need my car back on monday, and so i forced to take my car to another workshop which im not so trust them and they cost so expensive. But what to do, there are no second choice for me. I just hope they will repair it nicely and don't have this problem anymore on monday so that i can drive smoothly and safe back to Kl since my friends follow my car back as well.
From this, really let me know that i really had grow up and so now everything i need to settle by myself, no one can help you actually. At the moment i feel helpless and scare till face turn pale, who can help me?? Answer is no one is there to help me except myself include my family. They can't help me also. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! Im so stress and so wanna run away from all these and to the sea for me to shout it loudly!!! My mind can't think anything anymore and i don't have appetite at all also. Today really damn bad luck day for me. What i can hope for is start from tomorrow, will be a better day for me!!!
When back to home, im so bad mood but my mum keep on asking me, make me damn annoying and so i said i want to sleep. I know my behaviour is very impolite but i really very very sad and bad mood already, there are still lots of problem i need to solve like i need to think how to go back to KL, how i need go to office without car!!!
Because of i need my car back on monday, and so i forced to take my car to another workshop which im not so trust them and they cost so expensive. But what to do, there are no second choice for me. I just hope they will repair it nicely and don't have this problem anymore on monday so that i can drive smoothly and safe back to Kl since my friends follow my car back as well.
From this, really let me know that i really had grow up and so now everything i need to settle by myself, no one can help you actually. At the moment i feel helpless and scare till face turn pale, who can help me?? Answer is no one is there to help me except myself include my family. They can't help me also. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! Im so stress and so wanna run away from all these and to the sea for me to shout it loudly!!! My mind can't think anything anymore and i don't have appetite at all also. Today really damn bad luck day for me. What i can hope for is start from tomorrow, will be a better day for me!!!
Wednesday, 28 December 2011
Mix Feeling!!!
Recently i always went shopping with my buddy at a few places but yet tonight is the most happy and also crazy shopping day for me. Frank to say that this is the first time let me really feel that shopping can let me feel so happy. Although money out like water but yet it really wash off my sadness. Is it very powerful??? The most happy thing is that in the end i really did it!!! I really succeed to make the changes in my dressing style and all is my buddy contribution!!! Really thanks very much for being my stylist..hahaha..
But when i reached home and log into facebook, i only realized that my another lovely buddy in a big problem while im shopping happily. I feel so worry of her at that time and so i faster called her. But the line here damn suck cause me need to stop while she was telling me what had happen until the third time, i decided went out and called her again. When she was talking to me on the phone, i know that she was crying and so at that time, i so wanna to cry out together as well since i also got some problem. Sometimes i really hope to have someone there for me to hug tightly and let me cry out loudly but yet no one is there. I really don't know how long i can continue with this and so i really must make some changes in myself.
p/s: All the best to my dear buddy!!! May her blessed with God all the time!!! =)
But when i reached home and log into facebook, i only realized that my another lovely buddy in a big problem while im shopping happily. I feel so worry of her at that time and so i faster called her. But the line here damn suck cause me need to stop while she was telling me what had happen until the third time, i decided went out and called her again. When she was talking to me on the phone, i know that she was crying and so at that time, i so wanna to cry out together as well since i also got some problem. Sometimes i really hope to have someone there for me to hug tightly and let me cry out loudly but yet no one is there. I really don't know how long i can continue with this and so i really must make some changes in myself.
p/s: All the best to my dear buddy!!! May her blessed with God all the time!!! =)
Saturday, 24 December 2011
Am i changed???
Sometimes i just feel so tired of all these!!!Am i too good edi in the past and so now let u feel like that??? Okays, for this question, i will seriously think of it and the answer will be in the next post!!!
Monday, 19 December 2011
A truth friend!!!
Yesterday im felt so touched by my lovely buddy. Last two weeks i told her before that the owner of this house will go to singapore started from yesterday till tomorrow and said if is weekends, then so good cos she can come n accompany me. This is because it is impossible to ask her to accompany me on weekday since she need go to work in Subang that she need to wake up early and stuck in the traffic jam. And so, at first i thought can ask my colleague to accompany me. But because of im not so like to ask help from people and so i just mentioned to my colleague and then said no need. Until yesterday, suddenly i received a message from her that she want to stay in my house. Wow, that is so great!!! Frank to say i really will feel scare if i stay alone just like the last friday, i felt so scare bcos the auntie still hasnt come bek altot is 11.30pm edi. For those who really know me, they will know that actually im just look strong outside but very 'weak' inside.
And so when she reached my house, she asked me when will auntie n uncle come bek n i said 'tuesday', den she said 'good, i oso plan to stay here till tuesday!'. Wow, is so awesome and touched when i heard that, at that moment once again let me feel that although we never said love or miss you like i with other frens bt yet in our heart, we do know each other vry well and what we really want. It is just like we no need say out anything but yet we know that we are vry care n love each other. Actually i felt it already that she really a truth friend for me since im in hospital and oso after out from hospital. Last time i always heard people said that when u in trouble or sick, u will only know who are the truth frens. Now i really totally can feel it strongly and im glad that i have a few truth friends by my side.
p/s: Thanks my dear buddy, i wll never forget what u had done to me and i promise that i will be ur side whenever u need me!!! <3
And so when she reached my house, she asked me when will auntie n uncle come bek n i said 'tuesday', den she said 'good, i oso plan to stay here till tuesday!'. Wow, is so awesome and touched when i heard that, at that moment once again let me feel that although we never said love or miss you like i with other frens bt yet in our heart, we do know each other vry well and what we really want. It is just like we no need say out anything but yet we know that we are vry care n love each other. Actually i felt it already that she really a truth friend for me since im in hospital and oso after out from hospital. Last time i always heard people said that when u in trouble or sick, u will only know who are the truth frens. Now i really totally can feel it strongly and im glad that i have a few truth friends by my side.
p/s: Thanks my dear buddy, i wll never forget what u had done to me and i promise that i will be ur side whenever u need me!!! <3
Thursday, 15 December 2011
Is 2011 an annus horribilis or annus eximius???
This morning went to office, after on the computer and went to the star online, got a topic that catched my eyes and so i faster clicked into it and have a look. The title is 'Did 2011 go too fast to u?'. Wow, exactly is what im thinking whole last night. For me, i really feel that 2011 go too fast for me but when i think more deeply, actually not that fast though, just is because in this 2011 year, many changes happen in my life.
Early of this year, i still a final year student who busy with doing thesis. Since i had promised myself that i want have some changes in my final year and so i did it. I become more active during the final year, always went out with my friends and coursemate. Just in two months time, i went to Putrajaya for photo shooting, Port Dickson to play banana boat and had my first experience of playing kites, Bagan Datoh for enjoying, had my first time malay steambot and etc. After that, i went for internship in Wisma Taiko, meet many nice friends and powerful people overthere, learnt something about working life, went to estates and mills, first time stayed in hotel alone and first time drank beer. After the internship end, finally i can declared myself that i had graduated. In September that is my convocation, the moment let my parents feel proud of me. After that, is my working life started on November. In this month, many things happened too. First time i took flight, first time went to such a grand meeting that consisted of 800 delegates from all over the world, first time went into hospital and oso underwent a minor surgery. Wow, there are so many things happen to me in this year and actually i should feel happy with all the changes i had. But because of my current career, i cant have the self-satisfication, my life is like without a proper planning, no goal, no target and no aim. But i myself very clear that actually is because of the office situation that they are planning to move into new office but too bad that they delay and delay for that. This cause me cant have a clear picture for my future and so i felt upset of it. Many people feel that im very geng since im emloyed by senior general manager but actually got how many people really know how it felt??? First time working without the boss beside you, the feeling is just like no guidance, no one can really tell me what can i do and what should i do, when did something wrong, no one can tell also. Sometimes i saw my friends who work in other company who have their own supervisor to teach, guide them, i felt so good and thinking how good if my boss is there for me too.
And so, from next year onwards, i want have some changes in me just like what i did early of this year. For 2012, i want have a brand new of me that have a good and proper planning for my own life, career and be more mature in thinking. To reach 2012, now still have 15 more days and so im sure i can figure out a good planning for myself and i want my career and lifestyle become much more exciting and interesting. 2012, may i blessed with lucks and health and hapiness.
p/s: Anywhere, most important is still my lovely family and friends, may them blessed with health, lucks and hapiness as well!!!<3
Early of this year, i still a final year student who busy with doing thesis. Since i had promised myself that i want have some changes in my final year and so i did it. I become more active during the final year, always went out with my friends and coursemate. Just in two months time, i went to Putrajaya for photo shooting, Port Dickson to play banana boat and had my first experience of playing kites, Bagan Datoh for enjoying, had my first time malay steambot and etc. After that, i went for internship in Wisma Taiko, meet many nice friends and powerful people overthere, learnt something about working life, went to estates and mills, first time stayed in hotel alone and first time drank beer. After the internship end, finally i can declared myself that i had graduated. In September that is my convocation, the moment let my parents feel proud of me. After that, is my working life started on November. In this month, many things happened too. First time i took flight, first time went to such a grand meeting that consisted of 800 delegates from all over the world, first time went into hospital and oso underwent a minor surgery. Wow, there are so many things happen to me in this year and actually i should feel happy with all the changes i had. But because of my current career, i cant have the self-satisfication, my life is like without a proper planning, no goal, no target and no aim. But i myself very clear that actually is because of the office situation that they are planning to move into new office but too bad that they delay and delay for that. This cause me cant have a clear picture for my future and so i felt upset of it. Many people feel that im very geng since im emloyed by senior general manager but actually got how many people really know how it felt??? First time working without the boss beside you, the feeling is just like no guidance, no one can really tell me what can i do and what should i do, when did something wrong, no one can tell also. Sometimes i saw my friends who work in other company who have their own supervisor to teach, guide them, i felt so good and thinking how good if my boss is there for me too.
And so, from next year onwards, i want have some changes in me just like what i did early of this year. For 2012, i want have a brand new of me that have a good and proper planning for my own life, career and be more mature in thinking. To reach 2012, now still have 15 more days and so im sure i can figure out a good planning for myself and i want my career and lifestyle become much more exciting and interesting. 2012, may i blessed with lucks and health and hapiness.
p/s: Anywhere, most important is still my lovely family and friends, may them blessed with health, lucks and hapiness as well!!!<3
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
Undescrible feeling...
This morning on the way back to kl, im think a lot about my career, my frens n my life now. But dont know why when i think more, i felt more unhappy. Actually many people out there very hope to get such a job like me that can be so free and go outstation. But for me, i know this is not what i hope for and so i always hope to have some changes but what can i do now is just wait and wait.
Am i always think too much and too care of something??? And so, i cant really enjoy my life now. Buddies, i think i really need someone to cheer me up. I cant continue with this kind of life anymore!!!
Am i always think too much and too care of something??? And so, i cant really enjoy my life now. Buddies, i think i really need someone to cheer me up. I cant continue with this kind of life anymore!!!
Wednesday, 7 December 2011
A day to be remembered...
Today is the first time i said like that and also a day let me felt like that. At first i really think that nothing is impossible bt actually everything still need a procedure that we cant be too fast to be like that. And so, once again let me wondering am i do the right thing??? Anywhere, i also don't know how and so just can let it be.
p/s: because of some factor and so this post seem like quite weird cos i think no one will understand it..hahaha...
p/s: because of some factor and so this post seem like quite weird cos i think no one will understand it..hahaha...
Monday, 5 December 2011
Pray hard!!!
Today really can consider nt a good day for me. At first saw my boss came to office, i felt so hapi n excited since i got many question to ask him bt then afta asked, i felt so sad n disappointed. Bt afta chat wif my dear fren, i feel better edi. But suddenly, i received a bad news from my lovely sis tat my god-brother fetus confirmed by doctor that no heart beat and so tomoro his wife will undergo operation for it. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!! How come like that? What had happen? I so sad when noe it n wan to cry out oso bt i noe tat i muz pretend to be positive n gv them support. Now i just pray hard for tomoro operation, may it run smoothly!!! Pray hard pray hard!!!
Wednesday, 30 November 2011
那些年。。。
那些年，这部戏我看了两次。。。由于我读女校，所以我没什么感觉当看这戏时。。。
好吧，就让我讲讲那些年吧！！！对我来说，我的那些年应该是在中二时发生。。。他是第一个让我的心跳到很快，也是第一个让我有种被保护的感觉。。。还记得有一天你突然放你的双手在我两边，你的面是多么的靠近我的面，那时我的心真的真的跳到好快好快，心里也有种很兴奋的感觉。。。那时，我真的真的很希望时间能停留在那刻。。。从那时，每天去上课变成我最开心的事因为我能见到你。。。不过，那时我知道我们是不可能的，但见到你已成为我的习惯，直到中四，你消失了，我也见不到你了，那时我就常常打开你曾经写过的和画过的纸张。。。可惜，最后我们都没缘再见直到最近，我再次见到你，虽然你我都认的对方但我们都没打招呼，看到你健康的样子，我感到很开心，真的在这祝福您健康快乐！！！
突然间真的很想念当年，小时后真的好开心和幸福哦。。。
好吧，就让我讲讲那些年吧！！！对我来说，我的那些年应该是在中二时发生。。。他是第一个让我的心跳到很快，也是第一个让我有种被保护的感觉。。。还记得有一天你突然放你的双手在我两边，你的面是多么的靠近我的面，那时我的心真的真的跳到好快好快，心里也有种很兴奋的感觉。。。那时，我真的真的很希望时间能停留在那刻。。。从那时，每天去上课变成我最开心的事因为我能见到你。。。不过，那时我知道我们是不可能的，但见到你已成为我的习惯，直到中四，你消失了，我也见不到你了，那时我就常常打开你曾经写过的和画过的纸张。。。可惜，最后我们都没缘再见直到最近，我再次见到你，虽然你我都认的对方但我们都没打招呼，看到你健康的样子，我感到很开心，真的在这祝福您健康快乐！！！
突然间真的很想念当年，小时后真的好开心和幸福哦。。。
Saturday, 26 November 2011
Friendship
My dear, yesterday im really felt so sad n disappointed on you. After i awake from anesthetic, my phone full wif calls n messages bt too bad, among them, don't have urs. At that moment, im wondering why, this is because the office driver also called me a few times bt yet you didnt. I do know that i should not compared u with the others bt really vry hard for me don't do that cos i oso a human. Yesterday night, i really cried out, i think i really too concern on you, cos at first is you who make me feel tat you will vry appreciate me, is you who gv me the confident tat u r different from other colleagues. And since i had been hurt by two friends, so i vry hapi when i find sumone who will appreciate me cos in this world, reali vry hard to find a person like tat. Yesterday i reali felt vry scare tat our friendship will juz disappear like that, bt afta we shared it out, i feel much more better now. My dear, i really really vry glad to noe u in this office, i think all this is arranged by God who let us hv the destiny to meet n be so close fren like now. U reali the first one who i cried for altot we juz noe less than one month, u oso the one who i always will thinking of when im sad, n u oso the one im so hope to protect from being tricked by other colleagues. Dear, im reali take u as my best ever fren bt i hope u wont misthinking that i take u as boyfren cos im nt lesbian. For me, i juz feel tat u r a gud besties tat i can share with n talk to. And when i reali take sumone as best fren, i will treat her vry vry gud n protect her.
One more thing to tell u is tat i always be ur side to support u when u need me, u can just tell me anytime when u need me altot during the midnight. Love u always.
One more thing to tell u is tat i always be ur side to support u when u need me, u can just tell me anytime when u need me altot during the midnight. Love u always.
First time in hospital
Frank to say it is not the first time for me to be in hospital since i had been accompany my relative in hospital before bt it is the first for myself to stay in hospital. Friday was the first time i had been admitted into hospital and sumore is KL hospital. Bt luckily i have my cousins here to accompany me, one of them is Annette who bring me to hospital until i discharge from hospital. The other one is who cook dinner for me and accompany me for whole friday night till i did my surgery. On friday, my colleagues visited me oso n of course is my besties, ho fun n shan who accomapny me till 11pm sumting. At the moment, i onli feel tat i oso have sumone who care n love me, let me feel secure n warm. Thats why many people said u will only realized who r the truth fren during ur difficult moment and nt those who with u during the hapi moment. It is so true n im so glad to hv these besties with me always. Although nw im still in pain, bt i feel vry hapi n glad cos finally i find my besties ler...love u all the most!!! thanks so much for accompany me all the while!!!<3
My Working Life
So fast, i had been work in this office for one month edi...still remember the first day, when i went inside the office, i felt so surprise cos it is so much different from HQ office in Ipoh. After that, since my boss n the boss overthere went to Jakarta, so tat day no one can guide n tell me what to do, so i just sat in the meeting room without doing anything. Until the third day, the big boss in this office came n saw me, he gave me some reading material for me to noe more about RSPO. For the second week, i only have the chance to c my boss n he let me feel more secure to be in this office and the most important is that he said i might transfer back to ipoh office..ohhh,yeah!!! this is what i so hope to listen to. During the third week, i had been given the chance to go to Sabah to attend RT9 and from there, i noe more about RSPO. And it is oso the first time i take flight, the experience is so cool n good tat nw i noe tat hw is the feeling when in the plane. Bt too bad is that im nt feeling well and so afta back from sabah, i went n c panel doctor n den admitted to hospital edi. Im reali feel vry bad to claim from company since i nt yet work for one month bt all my cousins n frens said i should claim from company de, bt in heart im sure my boss will feel disappointed on me for being so weak...haiz...bt tis one really out of my control, so i hope he wont feel like tat la...to let him dun feel nt worth for employ me, i wan to be more hardworking in the future so tat before he retired, i will be the one who able to assist him the most n let him feel proud n worth to employ me...
Tuesday, 4 October 2011
想念···
今天很偶然地看了一位我不认识的布落格。。。因为一些原因，让我越看越想继续。。。当中我发现了我往往认为那个人很好但只是因为我跟他不熟，这世上是很公平，每一个人有他的好与坏，是不会有完美的人。。。老天爷是很公平的。。。
好了，现在就让我说说毕业后的感想吧！！！时间过的真快，我的毕业典礼已愿满结束了。。那天看见爸笑地那麽开心，我就知道他心中是多麽的幸为，多麽的以我为荣。。从小，他就告诉我们说：“以前爸很穷，公公很早就去世所以他身为大二就的放弃学业，出来打工以便能让其他弚妹有书读。。。虽然爸不认识字但很希望你们学业有成，不要像爸要做苦工。。。” 爸的这一翻话，我都记在心中因为我真的想让他以我为荣。。。我要让他知道虽然我们家不有钱但只少他还能让我们一家四口吃的饱，睡的饱之外，还能让我上大学直到学业有成地回来。。。爸，虽然我没跟您说我爱您但其实这一句话从没变过，我爱您，爸！！！
说完爸，就论到妈咯！！虽然那天您没怎麽笑出来但我知道您在心里是感到多麽的开心和欣为。。您这麽多年辛辛苦苦地照顾我们，教我们做人的道理，永远都会留在我心里。。。我会时时刻刻记住您的教惠。。还记得当年您知道我考获全A在PMR，您的高喊是多麽的让我记在心中，多麽的让我知道虽然您从来都没怎麽给我压力但我知道您是多麽地希望我能学业有成。。。这全都我知道只是我们疲此没说出来。。。妈，我爱您！！！
最后，我想说爸妈，您放心吧！！！我一定会好好地报答你们的养育之恩。。。再多不久，我就会开始新的路程，到时你们就可以不用那麽辛苦了，是时候享受人生了！！！
嚄，忘了说说我亲爱的姐姐！！她虽然表面上好像很喜欢跟我吵但其实很庝我。。。谢谢你送给我的手机哦。。。你要乖乖哦，多回家看看爸妈当我在KL做工。。。hehe。。
好了，就讲到这里吧。。。
p/s: hope the offer letter faster come la...lolzzz...hehehehe...may all of my family and friends hapi and healthy always ya...love u all sooooooooooo much!!!^^
好了，现在就让我说说毕业后的感想吧！！！时间过的真快，我的毕业典礼已愿满结束了。。那天看见爸笑地那麽开心，我就知道他心中是多麽的幸为，多麽的以我为荣。。从小，他就告诉我们说：“以前爸很穷，公公很早就去世所以他身为大二就的放弃学业，出来打工以便能让其他弚妹有书读。。。虽然爸不认识字但很希望你们学业有成，不要像爸要做苦工。。。” 爸的这一翻话，我都记在心中因为我真的想让他以我为荣。。。我要让他知道虽然我们家不有钱但只少他还能让我们一家四口吃的饱，睡的饱之外，还能让我上大学直到学业有成地回来。。。爸，虽然我没跟您说我爱您但其实这一句话从没变过，我爱您，爸！！！
说完爸，就论到妈咯！！虽然那天您没怎麽笑出来但我知道您在心里是感到多麽的开心和欣为。。您这麽多年辛辛苦苦地照顾我们，教我们做人的道理，永远都会留在我心里。。。我会时时刻刻记住您的教惠。。还记得当年您知道我考获全A在PMR，您的高喊是多麽的让我记在心中，多麽的让我知道虽然您从来都没怎麽给我压力但我知道您是多麽地希望我能学业有成。。。这全都我知道只是我们疲此没说出来。。。妈，我爱您！！！
最后，我想说爸妈，您放心吧！！！我一定会好好地报答你们的养育之恩。。。再多不久，我就会开始新的路程，到时你们就可以不用那麽辛苦了，是时候享受人生了！！！
嚄，忘了说说我亲爱的姐姐！！她虽然表面上好像很喜欢跟我吵但其实很庝我。。。谢谢你送给我的手机哦。。。你要乖乖哦，多回家看看爸妈当我在KL做工。。。hehe。。
好了，就讲到这里吧。。。
p/s: hope the offer letter faster come la...lolzzz...hehehehe...may all of my family and friends hapi and healthy always ya...love u all sooooooooooo much!!!^^
Sunday, 25 September 2011
The Most Important Day in My Study Life -- 25th Sept 2011
Today is my 'Big Day' that is my convocation day in UKM. Before that, i came to KL already and stay in my relative house till yesterday, my family came also. Early this morning, we went to UKM since mine is the morning session. When we reached UKM, i brought my parents to the entrance that had directed and then i went to find my coursemate. But because too many people already, so i didnt see them until my ex-rumie, Xiao Qing came towards me and then i only know that where are them. Then, Xiao Qing helped me put on my graduation hat, to make sure it is tight enough, she used the clips. After that, we went n met our coursemate and took a few pictures. Then, we line up and went inside the hall.
So fast my 16 years of study life come to an end and full-stop. Frankly to say till now, i still cant believe that no more study life for me anymore except i continue for master n Phd bt for sure now i wont continue to study. And so, today i really felt like miserable, like cant accept this reality for the moment!!! But i do know the next stage of my life is begin soon so i should put all this down and continue my life journey that is working life. Now i really grow up already, im should not think like a children anymore. Now is my responsible to take care my parents!!! So, i must wake up and hope start from tomorrow, i hope i can put down all the sad things and continue my life journey!!!!! LEE KUAN YEE, im sure u CAN!!!!!!!!!!! Dont think too much and just let it be!!!
Saturday, 10 September 2011
My Birthday Celebration
Frankly to say i really didnt realized tat 2day is my birthday until yesterday 12am, my dearest n lovely best fren from australia sent a warm birthday wishes to me...at tat time i was watching tvb drama n when i read it, i only realized tat 2day is my birthday...this is because in my family tradition, we didnt celebrate western birthday, my parents juz will celebrate our chinese birthday n so altot 2day is my birthday, i didnt eat a piece of cake oso...
This early morning, i felt very sad because of something happen bt after discussed it with my mum, i felt hapi edi...n when my sister text me n said she will come back 2nite n bring me out, i felt vry hapi n touched...actuali i do noe my sister vry love n care me, juz we dun like to show it off...really can be said this year birthday celebration really vry wonderful becos of my sister...laz week she came back n bought a new phone for me as my birthday present n 2nite she brought me out wif a few frens...at Berlin, i tasted a few types of wine bt i drank vry vry little yet my face can becum so red...n so i noe tat actuali im nt gud in drinking...hehe...
Lastly, i want to say thanks to everyone who wish me n especially credit to my dearest sister...^^
This early morning, i felt very sad because of something happen bt after discussed it with my mum, i felt hapi edi...n when my sister text me n said she will come back 2nite n bring me out, i felt vry hapi n touched...actuali i do noe my sister vry love n care me, juz we dun like to show it off...really can be said this year birthday celebration really vry wonderful becos of my sister...laz week she came back n bought a new phone for me as my birthday present n 2nite she brought me out wif a few frens...at Berlin, i tasted a few types of wine bt i drank vry vry little yet my face can becum so red...n so i noe tat actuali im nt gud in drinking...hehe...
Lastly, i want to say thanks to everyone who wish me n especially credit to my dearest sister...^^
Tuesday, 23 August 2011
Sleepless Nite
These few weeks, i had a problem especially at nite...tat is i cant slip well...actuali i noe the source of the problem tat is im worry n stress up with my job placement...i really very scare n wori n stress...had been many times when i hope to talk to my frens bt when i click on their name, i juz deleted it cos feel like vry lazy to say out edi...my relatives n parents alwaz ask me on this, alwaz ask me go to taiko n ask the GM...bt they never noe tat actuali i had asked them, juz wat they reply is juz wait...bcos of my sister wan the car bek so nw i nid to buy a second-hand car first..cos if they employ me, i will start work on oct n the area there like quite hard to get public transport n so my mind alwaz thinking sure nid a car if work there..n so my mum asked my neighbour who sell second-hand car to help me find one car n nw we get it n oso bought it...bt tis make me more wori n scare, cos i scare if in the end they dont wan employ me, hw i tell my mum since we bought the car edi...n sumore nw my mum chat wif the aunties about hw to cum bek if work in kl like cum bek wif her son or wat...all these make me more n more stress...i reali vry scare tat they wont employ me in the end, if reali like tat, wat should i do??? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...please tell me what should i do now?????????i really no more idea on it, find job is still ok for me bt the thing is if they still wan me to wait till sept n no answer yet, den i juz can wait till then...if they employ me, everything settle but if they dont employ me, i nid find job n it is time consuming again...hw many months i nid to wait again???since internship, i edi waste up for almost two months...i reali dont noe how anymore...all these questions alwaz come to my mind when i close up my eyes at nite n so make me cant slip well...reali can be said i never be so stress ever, during uni life, altot sumtimes i stress bt im nt like nw...cos the situation nw is like out of my control, i cant predict on it...bt during uni time, i can presict the result like wat i can get n wat can i do to improve it...bt nw not like tat anymore...im tat type dont like things out of my control, i like the things tat i noe n can predict...really never think tat juz after graduate, i will face this type of problem edi n this reali vry challenge me either mentally or pysically...
During first year, when i accept this scholarship offer, i juz think tat im vry lucky cos can get a job edi once i graduate...i really never think tat all these problem...when saw most of my frens start to work edi, i really feel vry stress n sad cos im still unemployment...n so make me feel tat im vry useless...frankly to say i really vry hope to start work as soon as possible so tat i can let my parents especially my dad stop to work as earlier as possible since he so old edi...this is wat im worried oso...reali duno y, i reali feel tat my gud luck like disappear vry soon...n bcos of tat, i cant plan for my future...nw juz let me feel ta my future full of uncertainty...sumtimes i jz think tat will i unemploy like nw for many years??i noe i think n wori too much, bt i reali cant control, all these problems juz cum to my head...
What i hope now juz gt one thing tat is they will employ me n inform me earlier with the black n white...please!!please!!!please solve my problem earlier so tat i can slip soundly...
During first year, when i accept this scholarship offer, i juz think tat im vry lucky cos can get a job edi once i graduate...i really never think tat all these problem...when saw most of my frens start to work edi, i really feel vry stress n sad cos im still unemployment...n so make me feel tat im vry useless...frankly to say i really vry hope to start work as soon as possible so tat i can let my parents especially my dad stop to work as earlier as possible since he so old edi...this is wat im worried oso...reali duno y, i reali feel tat my gud luck like disappear vry soon...n bcos of tat, i cant plan for my future...nw juz let me feel ta my future full of uncertainty...sumtimes i jz think tat will i unemploy like nw for many years??i noe i think n wori too much, bt i reali cant control, all these problems juz cum to my head...
What i hope now juz gt one thing tat is they will employ me n inform me earlier with the black n white...please!!please!!!please solve my problem earlier so tat i can slip soundly...
Wednesday, 10 August 2011
WAITTTTTTTT!!!!!!
Recently dont know why in my dictionary always appear this word 'Wait!!!'...this word had make me feel very frustrating and also make me dont know what should i do for the next step...i really very hate this word now...because this word really not match with my principle and style...everyday i try to get myself out from this word but it seems out of my control now...i really dont wan wait anymore, please give me an answer...thanks for who are concern!!!
Sunday, 7 August 2011
What should i do???
I really no idea of it. I hope to come out with a good solution but it seems like is impossible. I know tat i considerate too much, i nid to think tis n tat bcos i hope i wont regret with any outcome tat i choose n so nw i choose nt to decide, juz wait n wait...yet i noe it is nt a gud solution bt perhaps it may...i really dont know how, read the news everyday n noe tat the world economy is getting worst n worst nw n so one more thing i worry of...i really duno hw n oso wat should i do...i juz hope God will lead me to a better route so tat i have a bright future...may God bless me always!!^^
Thursday, 4 August 2011
Changes...
Since tat day, i hope to have changes in myself...i realized my own weakness n so i try hard to change it...i oso noe tat one thing i muz forced myself to change cos i dont hope it happen once more n so nw may be can consider tat i reali can do it!! anywhere, nw i juz hope in tis coming september will be a great month for me since my birthday fall on sept, my convocation oso fall on tis month n if nothing happen, my offer letter should receive by tis month oso...n so reali can be said tat tis month is an important month for me n oso a turning point for me, afta tis, i reali hope tat i will have a new brand of me n life...im sure will have tis day to come...im waiting!!!
Saturday, 23 July 2011
Memory...
2day finished watch the 'Yes Sir, No Sir' drama...reali can be said i had long time didnt watch hk drama edi since i left ukm...duno y, when i watched tis drama, let me think bek many things tat happen during study life...n oso i missssssssss the study time soooooooooo much...including secondary school till uni life...bt i oso vry clear in mind tat i cant alwaz live in memory, i muz look forward...n i oso noe tat i will bcum like tat is bcos too free, cause me think so much...
Tat day i went bek to taiko to gv my transcript...when i reached there, all the colleagues there r so welcoming me, i felt so hapi...afta tat, i went inside n chat wif Mr. Har who is my supervisor during internship, i chat wif him for quite long time...first thing i asked was about my job placement, he told me tat laz few days he asked Mr. Sin edi n he said wan to employ me bt will have to start on 1st of Oct, bcos financial close end of sept n the new office will open end of the year...i asked for a few times to confirm tat they will reali wanna employ me n so he said yes...afta tat, came bek home, i chat wif frens n they suggested me to send an email to Mr. Sin n so i did it bt he didnt reply me till nw...i duno hw n oso wat should i do...i vry scare n wori tat they wont employ me...wat can i do???i reali duno, since internship end edi, i feel like im like live without soul, don't have the motivation to do anything, i noe im tat type of like to do work n so when too free like nw, i bcum like tat...i reali hope Mr. Sin will reply or call me soon so tat i can end my lazy life as soon as possible...afta internship end, i reali feel tat i love to work in taiko so much, i missssss the time n day overthere...can do work n oso can chat with them, i reali feel vry enjoy n hapi...i missssssssss them so muchhhhhhhhh!!!
Tat day i went bek to taiko to gv my transcript...when i reached there, all the colleagues there r so welcoming me, i felt so hapi...afta tat, i went inside n chat wif Mr. Har who is my supervisor during internship, i chat wif him for quite long time...first thing i asked was about my job placement, he told me tat laz few days he asked Mr. Sin edi n he said wan to employ me bt will have to start on 1st of Oct, bcos financial close end of sept n the new office will open end of the year...i asked for a few times to confirm tat they will reali wanna employ me n so he said yes...afta tat, came bek home, i chat wif frens n they suggested me to send an email to Mr. Sin n so i did it bt he didnt reply me till nw...i duno hw n oso wat should i do...i vry scare n wori tat they wont employ me...wat can i do???i reali duno, since internship end edi, i feel like im like live without soul, don't have the motivation to do anything, i noe im tat type of like to do work n so when too free like nw, i bcum like tat...i reali hope Mr. Sin will reply or call me soon so tat i can end my lazy life as soon as possible...afta internship end, i reali feel tat i love to work in taiko so much, i missssss the time n day overthere...can do work n oso can chat with them, i reali feel vry enjoy n hapi...i missssssssss them so muchhhhhhhhh!!!
Friday, 1 July 2011
The End of Internship Life = Graduate
Yesterday was my last day of internship and oso meants that i can graduate edi...a truely new life is leading ahead n waiting for me now that is the real working life...throughout this two months internship in Taiko Plantations, i really feel that my intern life vry gud, nt that tough...still remember the first day when i went to this company, i park my car at the visitor side, one of the guard who is Mr. Razak (at first duno who is he) asked me who am i, what is my purpose come here...afta i told him that 2day is my first day intern here, then he said u park here first n wait for instruction, so after i parked my car nicely, i went into the building and wait at the lobby there, n den gt one guy approached me and asked "Are u Miss Lee?" n i answered "Yes."...den he said i am Mr. Har, u wait here first, he went to his office and put the things down, den he came out again n said "Miss Lee, please come with me"...n den i went into his office n he started briefing me n told me that the HR manager resigned edi...afta that, he asked Miss Vannessa brought me to go arround the building n den i onli realized that tis building gt 11 floor...wow, so big o...hehe...afta tat, he brought me to my place n ask me to read annual report...afta tat, sit inside the room who is Mr. Martin talk to me n den started gv me some task to do...n den my internship life beginnnnnnn...throughout this internship, altot im nt that occupied bt i did learn something n gain some experience...i noe tat attitude is the most important thing in working life...n im sure my attitude is right that is i alwaz used to be hapi n ask whenever im nt understand, when given task, im felt vry hapi till Mr. Martin said i vry enjoy to do the work...yeah, reali..when nt given any task, i feel vry tired n sleepy n bored...n when Mr. Martin asked r u doing something?? den i said nope, i vry free n bored..hahaha...n den he said can i gv u some task?? i said sure, no problem...hahahaha...n when i given a task, i felt so hapi cos i gt sumting to do edi...n den bcos of my habit tat alwaz wan do the things fast n oso neat, so i alwaz vry fast finished it till the assistant sit beside me said u finish ur work edi??juz nw he nt gv u some work?? den i said yes, bt i finished edi, so nw bcum bored againnnnnnn...hehe...yeah, this is the real of me, when gt sumting to do, i wan finish it fast...n im sure tis kind of attitude is vry right n important oso since i noe that i respected by Mr. Martin...actuali many people said he nt tat gud, ya, reali, he gt sum weakness that is he too stress edi till gt health problem nw...bt one thing i should learnt from him that is he vry hardworking, this is wat i muz learnt from him...can be said that actuali he is my supervisor oso cos he taught me a lot n is he who gv me all the tasks...hehe...
Sit opposite me n beside Mr. Martin is Miss Zaliha, who is a manager oso n oso the one alwaz chat with me...hehe...altot im nt under her bt she oso taught me some important crew which i should noe n learnt when work in future...she said im vry gud, can mixed up with all people wif different ages n tis is vry gud in future...she asked me to maintain it...hehe...
Like what i said before, the one im most respected, admired n thankful is Mr. Sin who brought me to estates for that one whole week...i reali felt that if nt him, it is impossible for me as a trainee to follow them to visit estates for one whole week, stay in hotel for one whole week...reali thanx him for let me gain experience n noe more about RSPO, i oso noe that if i can work for him, im sure i will learn a lot a lot n is vry important for me in future...this monday, since i made up my mind that i wan to visit him, so i asked many people to go wif me to hospital n finally i got them...hehehe...n den we went to hospital n over there, he introduced me to his wife n said this is the girl i wan employ...hahahha...honestly n frankly to say that i reali hope to work wif him bt im hope can stay in ipoh, cos kl reali quite troublesome since i nid find accomodation n oso transportation, bt im oso sure that when they reali confirm wif me that they employ me n work in sungai buloh, im sure im dont have any problem, n i will easily adapt to the new environment juz like when first few days went to ukm...i oso noe that since i stil young, i should take this challenge n be independent, only from all these, i can be mature n learnt to be more independent juz like in uni time... so i reali hope that they will confirm with me soon so that i can make arrangement for it...hehe...
From this 2 motnhs internship, i oso realized my weakness that is when face to those who i noe they r my boss, i will bcum vry shy n scare...im nt dare to reali talk to them n face them, n i alwaz forget what i should do in front of them...n so from tis, i noe that i muz change, i muz learnt to be brave, no nid feel scare in working life, there r no 2nd chance for me...if i miss out tis chance, it is rarely gt another chance for me...so i muz changeeeeeeeeeeee tis...
Finally, im wondering will they reali employ me???when will they confirm with me??? may i alwaz blessed with luckssssssssss n God alwaz beside me...lastly, thanx so much to all my colleagues in TAIKO for help me directly n indirectly...^^
Sit opposite me n beside Mr. Martin is Miss Zaliha, who is a manager oso n oso the one alwaz chat with me...hehe...altot im nt under her bt she oso taught me some important crew which i should noe n learnt when work in future...she said im vry gud, can mixed up with all people wif different ages n tis is vry gud in future...she asked me to maintain it...hehe...
Like what i said before, the one im most respected, admired n thankful is Mr. Sin who brought me to estates for that one whole week...i reali felt that if nt him, it is impossible for me as a trainee to follow them to visit estates for one whole week, stay in hotel for one whole week...reali thanx him for let me gain experience n noe more about RSPO, i oso noe that if i can work for him, im sure i will learn a lot a lot n is vry important for me in future...this monday, since i made up my mind that i wan to visit him, so i asked many people to go wif me to hospital n finally i got them...hehehe...n den we went to hospital n over there, he introduced me to his wife n said this is the girl i wan employ...hahahha...honestly n frankly to say that i reali hope to work wif him bt im hope can stay in ipoh, cos kl reali quite troublesome since i nid find accomodation n oso transportation, bt im oso sure that when they reali confirm wif me that they employ me n work in sungai buloh, im sure im dont have any problem, n i will easily adapt to the new environment juz like when first few days went to ukm...i oso noe that since i stil young, i should take this challenge n be independent, only from all these, i can be mature n learnt to be more independent juz like in uni time... so i reali hope that they will confirm with me soon so that i can make arrangement for it...hehe...
From this 2 motnhs internship, i oso realized my weakness that is when face to those who i noe they r my boss, i will bcum vry shy n scare...im nt dare to reali talk to them n face them, n i alwaz forget what i should do in front of them...n so from tis, i noe that i muz change, i muz learnt to be brave, no nid feel scare in working life, there r no 2nd chance for me...if i miss out tis chance, it is rarely gt another chance for me...so i muz changeeeeeeeeeeee tis...
Finally, im wondering will they reali employ me???when will they confirm with me??? may i alwaz blessed with luckssssssssss n God alwaz beside me...lastly, thanx so much to all my colleagues in TAIKO for help me directly n indirectly...^^
Thursday, 23 June 2011
Feel sad...
This morning i got a bad news from my colleague that one of our General Manager met accident yesterday night n nw admitted in hospital...duno y, when i noe tat, i feel so sad...honestly i reali vry respect n admire him cos i reali feel tat he vry powerful, energetic, optimistic, motivate, friendly, nice, willing to gv young people a chance...ya, he reali vry geng...he full of energetic altot old edi bt yet he still able to show tat he still can do everything n be more successful...in tis company, throughout this two months internship, i reali wan to say thousand of thankful to him for giving me the chance to visit the estates n mills, let my internship nt tat boring, let me gain a lot experience n knowledge...from tat day i get to noe more about him, i said to myself tat i wan be like him in future, like the most when he said 'i like to make those ordinary people to become extraordinary'...wah, such a gud sentence, he juz can inspired me so much...juz like wat my fren said, if we wan to success, we muz suround those successful people n learnt from them, juz like wat he said everyone can be success juz depend on they wan anot, if we wan improve our english, den read the newspaper loudly, tis is wat i remember since scholarship interview till nw...Mr. Sin, may u get well soon...u reali a great people!!!
Monday, 30 May 2011
A Meaningful Trip to Estates n Mills
Last week was my first time went to estates n mill...first time stay in hotel alone n first time went a trip tat nt for fun bt for work...oso first time went to hotel reali juz for slip purpose...checked in so late at nite n checked out so early in the morning...the whole week reali gt many first time for me...n oso the first time i went out n have a drink (beer) wif the colleagues who i juz noe for a few days...reali vry amazing...actuali i reali vry enjoy n like travell like tis so during interview when the interviewer ask me hw i feel for tis whole week trip, i answered tat tis week is the most wonderful week for me since i start intern in tis company...cos reali vry gud, can go arround n no nid sit in office n do nothing there...so boring...n so i myself reali duno hw...duno wat i wan bt actuali i noe, i hope to work like tat bt based in ipoh n nt kl...i vry enjoy to do RSPO works bt nt in kl, i wan in ipoh...bt in reality i noe is impossible...things alwaz wont happen so gud, n so the reality is im sure nid to work in kl if they employ me except they release me n i can declare tat i reali unemplyment once graduate...hahhaa...anywhere, juz let God decide for me...if He wan me to work there, den i will work hard, if He dun wan me work there, den juz let it be...may i blessed wif God alwaz...^^
Monday, 16 May 2011
A Hapi Day @ Taiko...
2day i reali felt vry hapi...reali felt tat altot i vry free there, bt i gain sumting tat is i get to noe more people...n oso afta a long chat wif my supervisor, i reali felt tat vry gud n hapi cos he vry nice...reali hope can continue stay n work in tis company...looking forward...n so i will do my best so tat they c my talent n continue employ me...pray hard for it nw...hehe...^.^
Sunday, 15 May 2011
2nd week of intern @ taiko
In tis 2nd week, reali can use one word to describe it tat is FREE or BORED...the whole week routine was almost like sat in my place n read my book n den went bek home...i reali hope to get some works to do bt cant find it...till one day my supervisor brought me to c GM n den the GM said will bring me to Bahau on 23rd, den i feel quite gud cos can learn n c hw the estate works are...actuali i oso noe tis company reali vry gud n i can learn a lot from here...honestly i reali hope tis company will continue employ me n i hope to work here for long long time bt i didnt say it out like tat cos i scare too much expectation will let me vry disappointed if they didnt employ me...n i oso dun wan let my mum feel tat i oso hope to work here cos dun wan her wori so much...anywhere, nw i juz hope can learn more from tis GM n they will continue employ me...hope everything will go smoothly n there r some work for me to do in the following week...i hope for challenging work so tat i can learn more from it...hehe...bt tis week had foster the relationship between me n the other colleagues n im sure tis is a gud start for me...hehe...altot tis week vry free bt i vry hapi cos chat a lot wif them till i cry bcos of too hapi...hahaha...long time didnt like tat ler...hope for a better n bright 2mrw...^.^
Sunday, 8 May 2011
1st week of intern...
Time passed so fast juz like a rocket...so fast my first week intern over edi...still remember b4 start intern, i went for shopping to buy formal attire n feel vry nervous cos duno hw is it...bt afta tis first week, i felt tis reali a gud company, they reali vry concern on employees whether on safety n oso health...still remember the first two days, i still blur blur, duno hw, when vry free, i hope to get some work to do bt scare to ask the manager cos scare will disturb him bt in the end, i still ask bravely cos i dun wan do nothing there...altot nw i still nt an employee, bt i still take myself as an employee there n hope to help them do some works...cos i dun like to take something tat is the allowance bt yet do nothing, no contribute at all...i dun like take things for granted like tat...n oso will make me feel uncomfortable...bt honestly, i reali felt vry tired afta came bek from work bt during working time, i still vry energetic bt when came bek home, i felt vry tired...may be bcos during my study life especially the uni life, i can slip n rest whenever bt nw i cant...muz alwaz be alert n so my body still cant adapt to it...bt im sure slowly i will be ok...actuali i should nt feel so tired cos it end at 4.30pm, tat is better than other company edi...nw im reali hope to go to the clubhouse to do exercise afta work...like tat, im sure i will be more n more fit n healthy too...nw i can understand y most of the employees there work for 20++ years edi cos tis reali a gud gud company...hope they will continue employ me afta my two months internship...hehe...
Saturday, 30 April 2011
A Hapi Day ^.^
Yeah,finally wat kept in my heart for tis few weeks told her edi tat is my dear rumie, Xiao Qing...on 28th of april, it was a remarkable day for me...cos tat day finally i get my finished jilid thesis n oso pass it up,tat day i wondering for long time...thinking should go bek home or wait for my rumie cum bek bt in the end,i decided to bek home without waiting for her...cos i scare i will cry more if c her...however,things is like tat...on the way i go to ktm station,i saw her car bek n when i sms n told her tat i bek edi,i cried...when waititng for the train cum,i cried oso n when in the train,all memories in ukm cum across my mind one by one n make me cried oso...bt tat day i cried so much oso bcos misssssss her sooooooo much, cos actuali i reali hope to say gudbye n gv her a big hug b4 i bek...n oso bcos of wat happen make me feel sad...bt till yesterday, we said out edi n i feel vry hapi n glad tat she still take me as fren...n 2mrw she will go to phlipine for two months, i reali wori for her since nw so many disaster happen here n there, anywhere i will alwaz pray for her n may her blessed wif lucks n safe n healthy alwaz...Xiao Qing, reali thanx so much...i love u alwaz...misssss uuuuuuuu!!!u will alwaz in my heart toooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!
Monday, 25 April 2011
朋友， 好友， 知己。。。
最近， 看到朋友们写有多么不舍得离开这里的一切。。。其实我也跟他们一样， 这三年的大学说长不长但说短也不短。。。因为对我来说， 甜蜜的回忆一年都够了，不许要长的。。。在这三年， 最让我不舍得是在第三年的一切， 因为这第三年是我感到最开心的一年但也是最多变化的一年。。。在这短短的一年，拉近了我与系友们的关系， 让我发现到其实她们真的蛮好。。。也让我更加认识一个人， 但最近这一切好像都变了。。。因为一些事， 让我每天在想我们到底是那一种关系， 是朋友， 好友还是知己？？？但很肯定的是我当你是好友。。。可是你最近的一举一动却让我觉得你只是当我非常普通的朋友， 你不再跟我说多了， 可能是上一次我让你感到害怕了， 感到恐具了。。。不知道为什么每次当我遇到值得用心去交朋友时， 她们都会被我的关心和帮助而感到害怕。。。我这人就是这样， 当真真的当一个人是好友， 我就会对她很好很好， 很关心她， 很乐意地帮助她。。。但却每次因为这样而失去了她们。。。时间留在这边越少， 我的疑问也越强。。。我每次都在想当我们离开这里后，我们是否会继续联络， 但我知道我一定会很想跟你联络但我会尽量不这么做因为不想你觉得我好烦，也不想你觉得我很粘着你。。。不知道为什么我总是觉得你不会联络我的， 也觉得我们彼此的友谊就会慢慢地淡化了。。。这是我最不想要发生的事但却觉得一定会发生的。。。
My Study Life
Time flies so fast...so fast my study life almost come to the end...still remember during standard one, the first day when i went to school, im so scare n need my mum to accompany me, when teacher was teaching in front, i suddenly cried out loudly cos i didnt c my mum at outside there, n den my mum faster ran inside the classroom n said 'I just went to toilet'...haha...nw think bek, reali feel quite funny...actuali my memory during my childhood time quite blur blur, im nt tat remember bt my mum alwaz told me tat i vry obedient n dun like to watch cartoon since small, when my sister n cousins watched cartoon, i like went to outside n greet those auntie uncle who passed by...n i like to chat wif my neighbour who is an old auntie...haha...never think tat my childhood time is like tat...during primary school, my performance juz average n my maths at tat time is quite poor...one thing tat is funny is when my mum wan to beat me, i will juz cried vry vry loudly till my face turn to pale n make my mum vry worry n so she stop to beat n scold me...haha...sumtimes i juz thinking tis is my natural or i act it out so as to release myself from beat n scold...till nw, i still nt tat sure...
During secondary school, duno y, suddenly i bcum vry hardworking during form 1...my mum oso feel surprise wif my changes bt she vry hapi seeing me like tat, cos will study initiatively without she ask me to do so..still remember during form 3, i can memorised every page of history book, which page talk about wat i oso noe...n oso during form 3, i like to wake up during the midnight to study, the tactic tat i used to let myself wake up is i will drink plenty of water b4 went to slip, so tat i will woke up automatically to go toilet...haha...actuali my mum gt ask me wat time i wan wake up n den she will cum n wake me up bt i dun wan, cos i noe afta she woke up, is vry hard for her to continue slip, so i choose to use tis method...n so my hard work is paid off tat i succceed to score full A's in PMR...on the day result out, afta i noe my result, i called my mum n tell her tat dun cum earlier cos i nid take photo, n when i told her my result, she scream on the phone n i can noe tat hw hapi is she...altot my mum never gv me pressure bt i noe tat actuali she vry hope tat we can like our cousins, scored well in the exam...n oso since tis, i noe tat i muz work harder so tat my parents will feel proud of me...bt during form 4, i lazy again, actuali is still hardworking juz nt tat hardworking compared to form 3 n so my result start to drop till form 5, altot i try to work hard bek bt still cant get vry gud result...n den during form 6, i vry vry hardworking cos i noe tat tis is vry important moment for me since my future route depend on tis one n half year...n so luckily i scored quite gud n succeed to get scholarship...one thing i wan to say is during form 3 to form 5, im vry vry hapi everyday, altot im in gud class during form 4 n 5, bt my classmate nt like the other gud class, they vry enjoy n noisy n oso hapi everyday n so me too, still remember i alwaz make joke wif my frens till my frens alwaz ask me whether take medicine edi anot...haha...sumtimes looking bek the autographic book, i reali feel tat i change a lot nw, laz time i reali vry hapi n dun have any trouble everyday, i juz can laugh till cry n so my fren alwaz laugh till stomachache oso...we dun have any fren problem, we all juz so gud n can play 2geter bt nw...all change edi...
In tis 3 years uni life, i reali had been long long time didnt laugh from heart, i alwaz wonder where is my laughter edi???is it disappear edi???or is bcos i mature edi n so nw will consider many things...i duno...i reali hope to be hapi alwaz bt it seems cant, nw gt many problem appear, nid think about my future, my parents n so others...bt actuali oen thing i noe is i learnt a lot throughout tis uni life, i learnt to be independent, cant alwaz depend on others, nid to be initiative, nid discipline, time management muz be gud, dun alwaz hope for love n care from others cos they wont notice u, learnt try nt to ask help from others, learnt family is the best in our life, juz family will reali love n care for us, learnt stress management like watch drama n listen to music when stress...yup, all these i learnt throughout tis three years uni life...for the first n 2nd year, im nt tat enjoy bt till 3rd year, i reali vry enjoy my uni life n so let me missssss here so much nw...so fast, nw juz left 3 to 4 days for me to be in ukm, afta tat, start frm next week, will be a brand new chapter in my life-my working life...feel vry excited bt oso scare n wori cos i reali hope to continue work in tis company...hope i can pass the interview on 23rd of may...nw juz can pray n pray for it...hehe...
During secondary school, duno y, suddenly i bcum vry hardworking during form 1...my mum oso feel surprise wif my changes bt she vry hapi seeing me like tat, cos will study initiatively without she ask me to do so..still remember during form 3, i can memorised every page of history book, which page talk about wat i oso noe...n oso during form 3, i like to wake up during the midnight to study, the tactic tat i used to let myself wake up is i will drink plenty of water b4 went to slip, so tat i will woke up automatically to go toilet...haha...actuali my mum gt ask me wat time i wan wake up n den she will cum n wake me up bt i dun wan, cos i noe afta she woke up, is vry hard for her to continue slip, so i choose to use tis method...n so my hard work is paid off tat i succceed to score full A's in PMR...on the day result out, afta i noe my result, i called my mum n tell her tat dun cum earlier cos i nid take photo, n when i told her my result, she scream on the phone n i can noe tat hw hapi is she...altot my mum never gv me pressure bt i noe tat actuali she vry hope tat we can like our cousins, scored well in the exam...n oso since tis, i noe tat i muz work harder so tat my parents will feel proud of me...bt during form 4, i lazy again, actuali is still hardworking juz nt tat hardworking compared to form 3 n so my result start to drop till form 5, altot i try to work hard bek bt still cant get vry gud result...n den during form 6, i vry vry hardworking cos i noe tat tis is vry important moment for me since my future route depend on tis one n half year...n so luckily i scored quite gud n succeed to get scholarship...one thing i wan to say is during form 3 to form 5, im vry vry hapi everyday, altot im in gud class during form 4 n 5, bt my classmate nt like the other gud class, they vry enjoy n noisy n oso hapi everyday n so me too, still remember i alwaz make joke wif my frens till my frens alwaz ask me whether take medicine edi anot...haha...sumtimes looking bek the autographic book, i reali feel tat i change a lot nw, laz time i reali vry hapi n dun have any trouble everyday, i juz can laugh till cry n so my fren alwaz laugh till stomachache oso...we dun have any fren problem, we all juz so gud n can play 2geter bt nw...all change edi...
In tis 3 years uni life, i reali had been long long time didnt laugh from heart, i alwaz wonder where is my laughter edi???is it disappear edi???or is bcos i mature edi n so nw will consider many things...i duno...i reali hope to be hapi alwaz bt it seems cant, nw gt many problem appear, nid think about my future, my parents n so others...bt actuali oen thing i noe is i learnt a lot throughout tis uni life, i learnt to be independent, cant alwaz depend on others, nid to be initiative, nid discipline, time management muz be gud, dun alwaz hope for love n care from others cos they wont notice u, learnt try nt to ask help from others, learnt family is the best in our life, juz family will reali love n care for us, learnt stress management like watch drama n listen to music when stress...yup, all these i learnt throughout tis three years uni life...for the first n 2nd year, im nt tat enjoy bt till 3rd year, i reali vry enjoy my uni life n so let me missssss here so much nw...so fast, nw juz left 3 to 4 days for me to be in ukm, afta tat, start frm next week, will be a brand new chapter in my life-my working life...feel vry excited bt oso scare n wori cos i reali hope to continue work in tis company...hope i can pass the interview on 23rd of may...nw juz can pray n pray for it...hehe...
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