Friday 23 March 2012

In dilemma!!!!

I really don't know how!!! First time my heart feel so pain!!! First time i so wanna cry in front of others!!! First time i don't know what to do!!! All because of this is the first time i being cheated by a friend and sumore is a best friend who i so concern and never want to lose!!! I really don't know how to talk to u!!! Frank to tell you that my heart really like broken up since that day i realized that u lied to me, is really broken up!!! This is because i never expect you will be the first friend who lie to me and also never expect you will lie to me on so small thing!!! May be is because of i too concern you and so let me know it!!! And so now i feel so pain!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! What can i do??? What should i do???

Wednesday 21 March 2012

Hurt!!!

Is totally hurt!!! I think this is first time i being cheated like that!!! Before that, just had been ffk by frens but this time really superb hurt!!! The time i knew it, i just like can't accept it, and i really can feel how hurt and sad in my heart!!! It like screaming!!! Because i never expect this friend will cheat me like that!!! =(((((((((

Friday 16 March 2012

Worry night!!!

What i worried all the while happened tonight!!! I really very scare and worry!!! I don't know how but just cried and cried. I really feel very worry and scare!!!==

Wednesday 14 March 2012

A nice drama - On Call 36 Hours

Wow, like this drama so much!!! My cousin, my dear ho fun n me wait for the new episode everyday and waiting to watch it once back to home from office. Today episode is so meaningful and also very touching. Got one statement is that "don't ever keep your sickness from your family and also people around you so that they are given a chance to spend more time with you, otherwise if we leave this world suddenly, then at that moment they might can't accept and feel miserable!!!" Yaya, this is really very true but yet i always just can't tell my family when i sick till very serious that need admit to hospital or what, then only i will tell them. This happened to me twice already and had been scolded by my family also but yet i still like that. I also don't know why, sometimes feel that don't want them to worry but everytime will just let them even more worry.

Second statement is that "not everyone once went out from home and can come back home safely, there are some people just leave this world like that and left with lots of regrets!!!" This let me think back and is really very true. Actually life really very simple but don't know why we as human so like to make it complicated. And so, i want live my life meaningfully and wonderful. Although i do know my health getting worst and more worst now but i hope is nothing there!!! I just hope i can live longer than my parents, then i very satisfy already because i really can't imagine how would my parents especially my mum be if i got anything.

p/s: May everyone especially my family and dear friends stay happy and healthy always!!!<3<3<3

Thursday 8 March 2012

Fantastic Outstation!!!

This week really a meaningful outstation trip for me since i started work. Throughout this whole week, i learnt a lot on oil palm and also palm oil audit. Since i more and more interested in this field and so i felt very happy to join in this outstation. On the second day, the two boss in this office joined us as well and the second boss taught me a lot during the loose fruit audit. Since last time, i felt actually he is quite nice boss and not like what others said so, and so this time let me feel that he really quite good actually. Some of them said that because of my boss is Mr Sin and so he so nice to me but is it really like that?? Perhaps. But anywhere, i think i should learn from my boss that never trust and believe what other people say except i experienced it by myself.

Today is the last day for this trip and i had the opportunity to learn and chat with a senior there. And also let me found out something that i hope it is not real but if really real, then im sure this really wake me up completely. Will really let me believe that never trust anyone!!! From this trip, let me realized a few things as well. Anywhere, i also don't know how and what should i do but i think i will choose just let it be. I'm a human who will tired also, can't always be the contributor actually so just let it la.

Yesterday im had been felt very scare and worry of my own, but i don't know how to face it and i don't have the gut to face it as well. One thing for sure is i different, my thinking and value also different, and so i should not compare it. But sometimes i really don't know why??!!! Arghhhhh!!!
Lee Kuan Yee, just let it!!!!!! You will be ok one day!!!