Exactly still left 4 hours for the year of 2011 and then is the time for all of us to welcome 2012!!! Since today i had experienced such a good adventure, finally let me really think back what i had done in the past and so this time really let me awake from all these!!! Since last week, i had told my friends that i want changes in myself for the 2012 and so below are my resolutions for this new brand year:
1. Do exercise after finish work.
2. No more online after finish work.
3. Just can watch drama for not more than 2 episode.
4. Read more and learn more.
5. Sleep earlier.
6. Think openly, don't always upset or get angry because of small matter.
7. Save more.
8. Join Buddhist activities.
9. Control my bad tempered.
10. Bring parents for travelling.
Really hope that i can achieve all the above resolutions throughout the year. Should take every things happen as an opportunity for me to learn.
p/s: May my family, friends and everyone happy and healthy in this 2012!!! ^^
Saturday, 31 December 2011
New Year's Eve
Today is a superb damn bad luck to me!!! In the morning,im still in a superb good mood drive back to ipoh till i almost reached Bidor, my car broke down!!! Luckily i went inside to rest place near bidor and once i went inside, i cant move my car anymore and there was so much smoke out from the car. Before i went down from car, the people all came and helped me to see what had happen. There are some people who want to earn money and so try to cheat me but luckily got a chinese uncle, he so good that he told me what should i do. But too bad that i had followed what that bad people told and so i called someone from Bidor to come but in the same time i called Plus people come as well. In the end, there were quarell between us and the Bidor people who want to earn money from us. Most lucky is that my friend dad know some people from Bidor and so i managed to find people to tow my car back to Ipoh. On the way back to ipoh, i try to control my tears and i could feel that how sad and scare i felt. I really really very scare and feel so sorry to my friend for causing her need to accompany me and went through all these.
When back to home, im so bad mood but my mum keep on asking me, make me damn annoying and so i said i want to sleep. I know my behaviour is very impolite but i really very very sad and bad mood already, there are still lots of problem i need to solve like i need to think how to go back to KL, how i need go to office without car!!!
Because of i need my car back on monday, and so i forced to take my car to another workshop which im not so trust them and they cost so expensive. But what to do, there are no second choice for me. I just hope they will repair it nicely and don't have this problem anymore on monday so that i can drive smoothly and safe back to Kl since my friends follow my car back as well.
From this, really let me know that i really had grow up and so now everything i need to settle by myself, no one can help you actually. At the moment i feel helpless and scare till face turn pale, who can help me?? Answer is no one is there to help me except myself include my family. They can't help me also. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! Im so stress and so wanna run away from all these and to the sea for me to shout it loudly!!! My mind can't think anything anymore and i don't have appetite at all also. Today really damn bad luck day for me. What i can hope for is start from tomorrow, will be a better day for me!!!
When back to home, im so bad mood but my mum keep on asking me, make me damn annoying and so i said i want to sleep. I know my behaviour is very impolite but i really very very sad and bad mood already, there are still lots of problem i need to solve like i need to think how to go back to KL, how i need go to office without car!!!
Because of i need my car back on monday, and so i forced to take my car to another workshop which im not so trust them and they cost so expensive. But what to do, there are no second choice for me. I just hope they will repair it nicely and don't have this problem anymore on monday so that i can drive smoothly and safe back to Kl since my friends follow my car back as well.
From this, really let me know that i really had grow up and so now everything i need to settle by myself, no one can help you actually. At the moment i feel helpless and scare till face turn pale, who can help me?? Answer is no one is there to help me except myself include my family. They can't help me also. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! Im so stress and so wanna run away from all these and to the sea for me to shout it loudly!!! My mind can't think anything anymore and i don't have appetite at all also. Today really damn bad luck day for me. What i can hope for is start from tomorrow, will be a better day for me!!!
Wednesday, 28 December 2011
Mix Feeling!!!
Recently i always went shopping with my buddy at a few places but yet tonight is the most happy and also crazy shopping day for me. Frank to say that this is the first time let me really feel that shopping can let me feel so happy. Although money out like water but yet it really wash off my sadness. Is it very powerful??? The most happy thing is that in the end i really did it!!! I really succeed to make the changes in my dressing style and all is my buddy contribution!!! Really thanks very much for being my stylist..hahaha..
But when i reached home and log into facebook, i only realized that my another lovely buddy in a big problem while im shopping happily. I feel so worry of her at that time and so i faster called her. But the line here damn suck cause me need to stop while she was telling me what had happen until the third time, i decided went out and called her again. When she was talking to me on the phone, i know that she was crying and so at that time, i so wanna to cry out together as well since i also got some problem. Sometimes i really hope to have someone there for me to hug tightly and let me cry out loudly but yet no one is there. I really don't know how long i can continue with this and so i really must make some changes in myself.
p/s: All the best to my dear buddy!!! May her blessed with God all the time!!! =)
But when i reached home and log into facebook, i only realized that my another lovely buddy in a big problem while im shopping happily. I feel so worry of her at that time and so i faster called her. But the line here damn suck cause me need to stop while she was telling me what had happen until the third time, i decided went out and called her again. When she was talking to me on the phone, i know that she was crying and so at that time, i so wanna to cry out together as well since i also got some problem. Sometimes i really hope to have someone there for me to hug tightly and let me cry out loudly but yet no one is there. I really don't know how long i can continue with this and so i really must make some changes in myself.
p/s: All the best to my dear buddy!!! May her blessed with God all the time!!! =)
Saturday, 24 December 2011
Am i changed???
Sometimes i just feel so tired of all these!!!Am i too good edi in the past and so now let u feel like that??? Okays, for this question, i will seriously think of it and the answer will be in the next post!!!
Monday, 19 December 2011
A truth friend!!!
Yesterday im felt so touched by my lovely buddy. Last two weeks i told her before that the owner of this house will go to singapore started from yesterday till tomorrow and said if is weekends, then so good cos she can come n accompany me. This is because it is impossible to ask her to accompany me on weekday since she need go to work in Subang that she need to wake up early and stuck in the traffic jam. And so, at first i thought can ask my colleague to accompany me. But because of im not so like to ask help from people and so i just mentioned to my colleague and then said no need. Until yesterday, suddenly i received a message from her that she want to stay in my house. Wow, that is so great!!! Frank to say i really will feel scare if i stay alone just like the last friday, i felt so scare bcos the auntie still hasnt come bek altot is 11.30pm edi. For those who really know me, they will know that actually im just look strong outside but very 'weak' inside.
And so when she reached my house, she asked me when will auntie n uncle come bek n i said 'tuesday', den she said 'good, i oso plan to stay here till tuesday!'. Wow, is so awesome and touched when i heard that, at that moment once again let me feel that although we never said love or miss you like i with other frens bt yet in our heart, we do know each other vry well and what we really want. It is just like we no need say out anything but yet we know that we are vry care n love each other. Actually i felt it already that she really a truth friend for me since im in hospital and oso after out from hospital. Last time i always heard people said that when u in trouble or sick, u will only know who are the truth frens. Now i really totally can feel it strongly and im glad that i have a few truth friends by my side.
p/s: Thanks my dear buddy, i wll never forget what u had done to me and i promise that i will be ur side whenever u need me!!! <3
And so when she reached my house, she asked me when will auntie n uncle come bek n i said 'tuesday', den she said 'good, i oso plan to stay here till tuesday!'. Wow, is so awesome and touched when i heard that, at that moment once again let me feel that although we never said love or miss you like i with other frens bt yet in our heart, we do know each other vry well and what we really want. It is just like we no need say out anything but yet we know that we are vry care n love each other. Actually i felt it already that she really a truth friend for me since im in hospital and oso after out from hospital. Last time i always heard people said that when u in trouble or sick, u will only know who are the truth frens. Now i really totally can feel it strongly and im glad that i have a few truth friends by my side.
p/s: Thanks my dear buddy, i wll never forget what u had done to me and i promise that i will be ur side whenever u need me!!! <3
Thursday, 15 December 2011
Is 2011 an annus horribilis or annus eximius???
This morning went to office, after on the computer and went to the star online, got a topic that catched my eyes and so i faster clicked into it and have a look. The title is 'Did 2011 go too fast to u?'. Wow, exactly is what im thinking whole last night. For me, i really feel that 2011 go too fast for me but when i think more deeply, actually not that fast though, just is because in this 2011 year, many changes happen in my life.
Early of this year, i still a final year student who busy with doing thesis. Since i had promised myself that i want have some changes in my final year and so i did it. I become more active during the final year, always went out with my friends and coursemate. Just in two months time, i went to Putrajaya for photo shooting, Port Dickson to play banana boat and had my first experience of playing kites, Bagan Datoh for enjoying, had my first time malay steambot and etc. After that, i went for internship in Wisma Taiko, meet many nice friends and powerful people overthere, learnt something about working life, went to estates and mills, first time stayed in hotel alone and first time drank beer. After the internship end, finally i can declared myself that i had graduated. In September that is my convocation, the moment let my parents feel proud of me. After that, is my working life started on November. In this month, many things happened too. First time i took flight, first time went to such a grand meeting that consisted of 800 delegates from all over the world, first time went into hospital and oso underwent a minor surgery. Wow, there are so many things happen to me in this year and actually i should feel happy with all the changes i had. But because of my current career, i cant have the self-satisfication, my life is like without a proper planning, no goal, no target and no aim. But i myself very clear that actually is because of the office situation that they are planning to move into new office but too bad that they delay and delay for that. This cause me cant have a clear picture for my future and so i felt upset of it. Many people feel that im very geng since im emloyed by senior general manager but actually got how many people really know how it felt??? First time working without the boss beside you, the feeling is just like no guidance, no one can really tell me what can i do and what should i do, when did something wrong, no one can tell also. Sometimes i saw my friends who work in other company who have their own supervisor to teach, guide them, i felt so good and thinking how good if my boss is there for me too.
And so, from next year onwards, i want have some changes in me just like what i did early of this year. For 2012, i want have a brand new of me that have a good and proper planning for my own life, career and be more mature in thinking. To reach 2012, now still have 15 more days and so im sure i can figure out a good planning for myself and i want my career and lifestyle become much more exciting and interesting. 2012, may i blessed with lucks and health and hapiness.
p/s: Anywhere, most important is still my lovely family and friends, may them blessed with health, lucks and hapiness as well!!!<3
Early of this year, i still a final year student who busy with doing thesis. Since i had promised myself that i want have some changes in my final year and so i did it. I become more active during the final year, always went out with my friends and coursemate. Just in two months time, i went to Putrajaya for photo shooting, Port Dickson to play banana boat and had my first experience of playing kites, Bagan Datoh for enjoying, had my first time malay steambot and etc. After that, i went for internship in Wisma Taiko, meet many nice friends and powerful people overthere, learnt something about working life, went to estates and mills, first time stayed in hotel alone and first time drank beer. After the internship end, finally i can declared myself that i had graduated. In September that is my convocation, the moment let my parents feel proud of me. After that, is my working life started on November. In this month, many things happened too. First time i took flight, first time went to such a grand meeting that consisted of 800 delegates from all over the world, first time went into hospital and oso underwent a minor surgery. Wow, there are so many things happen to me in this year and actually i should feel happy with all the changes i had. But because of my current career, i cant have the self-satisfication, my life is like without a proper planning, no goal, no target and no aim. But i myself very clear that actually is because of the office situation that they are planning to move into new office but too bad that they delay and delay for that. This cause me cant have a clear picture for my future and so i felt upset of it. Many people feel that im very geng since im emloyed by senior general manager but actually got how many people really know how it felt??? First time working without the boss beside you, the feeling is just like no guidance, no one can really tell me what can i do and what should i do, when did something wrong, no one can tell also. Sometimes i saw my friends who work in other company who have their own supervisor to teach, guide them, i felt so good and thinking how good if my boss is there for me too.
And so, from next year onwards, i want have some changes in me just like what i did early of this year. For 2012, i want have a brand new of me that have a good and proper planning for my own life, career and be more mature in thinking. To reach 2012, now still have 15 more days and so im sure i can figure out a good planning for myself and i want my career and lifestyle become much more exciting and interesting. 2012, may i blessed with lucks and health and hapiness.
p/s: Anywhere, most important is still my lovely family and friends, may them blessed with health, lucks and hapiness as well!!!<3
Wednesday, 14 December 2011
Undescrible feeling...
This morning on the way back to kl, im think a lot about my career, my frens n my life now. But dont know why when i think more, i felt more unhappy. Actually many people out there very hope to get such a job like me that can be so free and go outstation. But for me, i know this is not what i hope for and so i always hope to have some changes but what can i do now is just wait and wait.
Am i always think too much and too care of something??? And so, i cant really enjoy my life now. Buddies, i think i really need someone to cheer me up. I cant continue with this kind of life anymore!!!
Am i always think too much and too care of something??? And so, i cant really enjoy my life now. Buddies, i think i really need someone to cheer me up. I cant continue with this kind of life anymore!!!
Wednesday, 7 December 2011
A day to be remembered...
Today is the first time i said like that and also a day let me felt like that. At first i really think that nothing is impossible bt actually everything still need a procedure that we cant be too fast to be like that. And so, once again let me wondering am i do the right thing??? Anywhere, i also don't know how and so just can let it be.
p/s: because of some factor and so this post seem like quite weird cos i think no one will understand it..hahaha...
p/s: because of some factor and so this post seem like quite weird cos i think no one will understand it..hahaha...
Monday, 5 December 2011
Pray hard!!!
Today really can consider nt a good day for me. At first saw my boss came to office, i felt so hapi n excited since i got many question to ask him bt then afta asked, i felt so sad n disappointed. Bt afta chat wif my dear fren, i feel better edi. But suddenly, i received a bad news from my lovely sis tat my god-brother fetus confirmed by doctor that no heart beat and so tomoro his wife will undergo operation for it. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!! How come like that? What had happen? I so sad when noe it n wan to cry out oso bt i noe tat i muz pretend to be positive n gv them support. Now i just pray hard for tomoro operation, may it run smoothly!!! Pray hard pray hard!!!
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