A Hapi Day ^.^

Yeah,finally wat kept in my heart for tis few weeks told her edi tat is my dear rumie, Xiao Qing...on 28th of april, it was a remarkable day for me...cos tat day finally i get my finished jilid thesis n oso pass it up,tat day i wondering for long time...thinking should go bek home or wait for my rumie cum bek bt in the end,i decided to bek home without waiting for her...cos i scare i will cry more if c her...however,things is like tat...on the way i go to ktm station,i saw her car bek n when i sms n told her tat i bek edi,i cried...when waititng for the train cum,i cried oso n when in the train,all memories in ukm cum across my mind one by one n make me cried oso...bt tat day i cried so much oso bcos misssssss her sooooooo much, cos actuali i reali hope to say gudbye n gv her a big hug b4 i bek...n oso bcos of wat happen make me feel sad...bt till yesterday, we said out edi n i feel vry hapi n glad tat she still take me as fren...n 2mrw she will go to phlipine for two months, i reali wori for her since nw so many disaster happen here n there, anywhere i will alwaz pray for her n may her blessed wif lucks n safe n healthy alwaz...Xiao Qing, reali thanx so much...i love u alwaz...misssss uuuuuuuu!!!u will alwaz in my heart toooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!

朋友， 好友， 知己。。。

最近， 看到朋友们写有多么不舍得离开这里的一切。。。其实我也跟他们一样， 这三年的大学说长不长但说短也不短。。。因为对我来说， 甜蜜的回忆一年都够了，不许要长的。。。在这三年， 最让我不舍得是在第三年的一切， 因为这第三年是我感到最开心的一年但也是最多变化的一年。。。在这短短的一年，拉近了我与系友们的关系， 让我发现到其实她们真的蛮好。。。也让我更加认识一个人， 但最近这一切好像都变了。。。因为一些事， 让我每天在想我们到底是那一种关系， 是朋友， 好友还是知己？？？但很肯定的是我当你是好友。。。可是你最近的一举一动却让我觉得你只是当我非常普通的朋友， 你不再跟我说多了， 可能是上一次我让你感到害怕了， 感到恐具了。。。不知道为什么每次当我遇到值得用心去交朋友时， 她们都会被我的关心和帮助而感到害怕。。。我这人就是这样， 当真真的当一个人是好友， 我就会对她很好很好， 很关心她， 很乐意地帮助她。。。但却每次因为这样而失去了她们。。。时间留在这边越少， 我的疑问也越强。。。我每次都在想当我们离开这里后，我们是否会继续联络， 但我知道我一定会很想跟你联络但我会尽量不这么做因为不想你觉得我好烦，也不想你觉得我很粘着你。。。不知道为什么我总是觉得你不会联络我的， 也觉得我们彼此的友谊就会慢慢地淡化了。。。这是我最不想要发生的事但却觉得一定会发生的。。。

My Study Life

Time flies so fast...so fast my study life almost come to the end...still remember during standard one, the first day when i went to school, im so scare n need my mum to accompany me, when teacher was teaching in front, i suddenly cried out loudly cos i didnt c my mum at outside there, n den my mum faster ran inside the classroom n said 'I just went to toilet'...haha...nw think bek, reali feel quite funny...actuali my memory during my childhood time quite blur blur, im nt tat remember bt my mum alwaz told me tat i vry obedient n dun like to watch cartoon since small, when my sister n cousins watched cartoon, i like went to outside n greet those auntie uncle who passed by...n i like to chat wif my neighbour who is an old auntie...haha...never think tat my childhood time is like tat...during primary school, my performance juz average n my maths at tat time is quite poor...one thing tat is funny is when my mum wan to beat me, i will juz cried vry vry loudly till my face turn to pale n make my mum vry worry n so she stop to beat n scold me...haha...sumtimes i juz thinking tis is my natural or i act it out so as to release myself from beat n scold...till nw, i still nt tat sure...

During secondary school, duno y, suddenly i bcum vry hardworking during form 1...my mum oso feel surprise wif my changes bt she vry hapi seeing me like tat, cos will study initiatively without she ask me to do so..still remember during form 3, i can memorised every page of history book, which page talk about wat i oso noe...n oso during form 3, i like to wake up during the midnight to study, the tactic tat i used to let myself wake up is i will drink plenty of water b4 went to slip, so tat i will woke up automatically to go toilet...haha...actuali my mum gt ask me wat time i wan wake up n den she will cum n wake me up bt i dun wan, cos i noe afta she woke up, is vry hard for her to continue slip, so i choose to use tis method...n so my hard work is paid off tat i succceed to score full A's in PMR...on the day result out, afta i noe my result, i called my mum n tell her tat dun cum earlier cos i nid take photo, n when i told her my result, she scream on the phone n i can noe tat hw hapi is she...altot my mum never gv me pressure bt i noe tat actuali she vry hope tat we can like our cousins, scored well in the exam...n oso since tis, i noe tat i muz work harder so tat my parents will feel proud of me...bt during form 4, i lazy again, actuali is still hardworking juz nt tat hardworking compared to form 3 n so my result start to drop till form 5, altot i try to work hard bek bt still cant get vry gud result...n den during form 6, i vry vry hardworking cos i noe tat tis is vry important moment for me since my future route depend on tis one n half year...n so luckily i scored quite gud n succeed to get scholarship...one thing i wan to say is during form 3 to form 5, im vry vry hapi everyday, altot im in gud class during form 4 n 5, bt my classmate nt like the other gud class, they vry enjoy n noisy n oso hapi everyday n so me too, still remember i alwaz make joke wif my frens till my frens alwaz ask me whether take medicine edi anot...haha...sumtimes looking bek the autographic book, i reali feel tat i change a lot nw, laz time i reali vry hapi n dun have any trouble everyday, i juz can laugh till cry n so my fren alwaz laugh till stomachache oso...we dun have any fren problem, we all juz so gud n can play 2geter bt nw...all change edi...

In tis 3 years uni life, i reali had been long long time didnt laugh from heart, i alwaz wonder where is my laughter edi???is it disappear edi???or is bcos i mature edi n so nw will consider many things...i duno...i reali hope to be hapi alwaz bt it seems cant, nw gt many problem appear, nid think about my future, my parents n so others...bt actuali oen thing i noe is i learnt a lot throughout tis uni life, i learnt to be independent, cant alwaz depend on others, nid to be initiative, nid discipline, time management muz be gud, dun alwaz hope for love n care from others cos they wont notice u, learnt try nt to ask help from others, learnt family is the best in our life, juz family will reali love n care for us, learnt stress management like watch drama n listen to music when stress...yup, all these i learnt throughout tis three years uni life...for the first n 2nd year, im nt tat enjoy bt till 3rd year, i reali vry enjoy my uni life n so let me missssss here so much nw...so fast, nw juz left 3 to 4 days for me to be in ukm, afta tat, start frm next week, will be a brand new chapter in my life-my working life...feel vry excited bt oso scare n wori cos i reali hope to continue work in tis company...hope i can pass the interview on 23rd of may...nw juz can pray n pray for it...hehe...