The Most Important Day in My Study Life -- 25th Sept 2011

Today is my 'Big Day' that is my convocation day in UKM. Before that, i came to KL already and stay in my relative house till yesterday, my family came also. Early this morning, we went to UKM since mine is the morning session. When we reached UKM, i brought my parents to the entrance that had directed and then i went to find my coursemate. But because too many people already, so i didnt see them until my ex-rumie, Xiao Qing came towards me and then i only know that where are them. Then, Xiao Qing helped me put on my graduation hat, to make sure it is tight enough, she used the clips. After that, we went n met our coursemate and took a few pictures. Then, we line up and went inside the hall.

So fast my 16 years of study life come to an end and full-stop. Frankly to say till now, i still cant believe that no more study life for me anymore except i continue for master n Phd bt for sure now i wont continue to study. And so, today i really felt like miserable, like cant accept this reality for the moment!!! But i do know the next stage of my life is begin soon so i should put all this down and continue my life journey that is working life. Now i really grow up already, im should not think like a children anymore. Now is my responsible to take care my parents!!! So, i must wake up and hope start from tomorrow, i hope i can put down all the sad things and continue my life journey!!!!! LEE KUAN YEE, im sure u CAN!!!!!!!!!!! Dont think too much and just let it be!!!

My Birthday Celebration

Frankly to say i really didnt realized tat 2day is my birthday until yesterday 12am, my dearest n lovely best fren from australia sent a warm birthday wishes to me...at tat time i was watching tvb drama n when i read it, i only realized tat 2day is my birthday...this is because in my family tradition, we didnt celebrate western birthday, my parents juz will celebrate our chinese birthday n so altot 2day is my birthday, i didnt eat a piece of cake oso...

This early morning, i felt very sad because of something happen bt after discussed it with my mum, i felt hapi edi...n when my sister text me n said she will come back 2nite n bring me out, i felt vry hapi n touched...actuali i do noe my sister vry love n care me, juz we dun like to show it off...really can be said this year birthday celebration really vry wonderful becos of my sister...laz week she came back n bought a new phone for me as my birthday present n 2nite she brought me out wif a few frens...at Berlin, i tasted a few types of wine bt i drank vry vry little yet my face can becum so red...n so i noe tat actuali im nt gud in drinking...hehe...

Lastly, i want to say thanks to everyone who wish me n especially credit to my dearest sister...^^

Sleepless Nite

These few weeks, i had a problem especially at nite...tat is i cant slip well...actuali i noe the source of the problem tat is im worry n stress up with my job placement...i really very scare n wori n stress...had been many times when i hope to talk to my frens bt when i click on their name, i juz deleted it cos feel like vry lazy to say out edi...my relatives n parents alwaz ask me on this, alwaz ask me go to taiko n ask the GM...bt they never noe tat actuali i had asked them, juz wat they reply is juz wait...bcos of my sister wan the car bek so nw i nid to buy a second-hand car first..cos if they employ me, i will start work on oct n the area there like quite hard to get public transport n so my mind alwaz thinking sure nid a car if work there..n so my mum asked my neighbour who sell second-hand car to help me find one car n nw we get it n oso bought it...bt tis make me more wori n scare, cos i scare if in the end they dont wan employ me, hw i tell my mum since we bought the car edi...n sumore nw my mum chat wif the aunties about hw to cum bek if work in kl like cum bek wif her son or wat...all these make me more n more stress...i reali vry scare tat they wont employ me in the end, if reali like tat, wat should i do??? arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...please tell me what should i do now?????????i really no more idea on it, find job is still ok for me bt the thing is if they still wan me to wait till sept n no answer yet, den i juz can wait till then...if they employ me, everything settle but if they dont employ me, i nid find job n it is time consuming again...hw many months i nid to wait again???since internship, i edi waste up for almost two months...i reali dont noe how anymore...all these questions alwaz come to my mind when i close up my eyes at nite n so make me cant slip well...reali can be said i never be so stress ever, during uni life, altot sumtimes i stress bt im nt like nw...cos the situation nw is like out of my control, i cant predict on it...bt during uni time, i can presict the result like wat i can get n wat can i do to improve it...bt nw not like tat anymore...im tat type dont like things out of my control, i like the things tat i noe n can predict...really never think tat juz after graduate, i will face this type of problem edi n this reali vry challenge me either mentally or pysically...


During first year, when i accept this scholarship offer, i juz think tat im vry lucky cos can get a job edi once i graduate...i really never think tat all these problem...when saw most of my frens start to work edi, i really feel vry stress n sad cos im still unemployment...n so make me feel tat im vry useless...frankly to say i really vry hope to start work as soon as possible so tat i can let my parents especially my dad stop to work as earlier as possible since he so old edi...this is wat im worried oso...reali duno y, i reali feel tat my gud luck like disappear vry soon...n bcos of tat, i cant plan for my future...nw juz let me feel ta my future full of uncertainty...sumtimes i jz think tat will i unemploy like nw for many years??i noe i think n wori too much, bt i reali cant control, all these problems juz cum to my head...

What i hope now juz gt one thing tat is they will employ me n inform me earlier with the black n white...please!!please!!!please solve my problem earlier so tat i can slip soundly...

WAITTTTTTTT!!!!!!

Recently dont know why in my dictionary always appear this word 'Wait!!!'...this word had make me feel very frustrating and also make me dont know what should i do for the next step...i really very hate this word now...because this word really not match with my principle and style...everyday i try to get myself out from this word but it seems out of my control now...i really dont wan wait anymore, please give me an answer...thanks for who are concern!!!

What should i do???

I really no idea of it. I hope to come out with a good solution but it seems like is impossible. I know tat i considerate too much, i nid to think tis n tat bcos i hope i wont regret with any outcome tat i choose n so nw i choose nt to decide, juz wait n wait...yet i noe it is nt a gud solution bt perhaps it may...i really dont know how, read the news everyday n noe tat the world economy is getting worst n worst nw n so one more thing i worry of...i really duno hw n oso wat should i do...i juz hope God will lead me to a better route so tat i have a bright future...may God bless me always!!^^

Changes...

Since tat day, i hope to have changes in myself...i realized my own weakness n so i try hard to change it...i oso noe tat one thing i muz forced myself to change cos i dont hope it happen once more n so nw may be can consider tat i reali can do it!! anywhere, nw i juz hope in tis coming september will be a great month for me since my birthday fall on sept, my convocation oso fall on tis month n if nothing happen, my offer letter should receive by tis month oso...n so reali can be said tat tis month is an important month for me n oso a turning point for me, afta tis, i reali hope tat i will have a new brand of me n life...im sure will have tis day to come...im waiting!!!

Memory...

2day finished watch the 'Yes Sir, No Sir' drama...reali can be said i had long time didnt watch hk drama edi since i left ukm...duno y, when i watched tis drama, let me think bek many things tat happen during study life...n oso i missssssssss the study time soooooooooo much...including secondary school till uni life...bt i oso vry clear in mind tat i cant alwaz live in memory, i muz look forward...n i oso noe tat i will bcum like tat is bcos too free, cause me think so much...


Tat day i went bek to taiko to gv my transcript...when i reached there, all the colleagues there r so welcoming me, i felt so hapi...afta tat, i went inside n chat wif Mr. Har who is my supervisor during internship, i chat wif him for quite long time...first thing i asked was about my job placement, he told me tat laz few days he asked Mr. Sin edi n he said wan to employ me bt will have to start on 1st of Oct, bcos financial close end of sept n the new office will open end of the year...i asked for a few times to confirm tat they will reali wanna employ me n so he said yes...afta tat, came bek home, i chat wif frens n they suggested me to send an email to Mr. Sin n so i did it bt he didnt reply me till nw...i duno hw n oso wat should i do...i vry scare n wori tat they wont employ me...wat can i do???i reali duno, since internship end edi, i feel like im like live without soul, don't have the motivation to do anything, i noe im tat type of like to do work n so when too free like nw, i bcum like tat...i reali hope Mr. Sin will reply or call me soon so tat i can end my lazy life as soon as possible...afta internship end, i reali feel tat i love to work in taiko so much, i missssss the time n day overthere...can do work n oso can chat with them, i reali feel vry enjoy n hapi...i missssssssss them so muchhhhhhhhh!!!