Fantastic Outstation!!!

This week really a meaningful outstation trip for me since i started work. Throughout this whole week, i learnt a lot on oil palm and also palm oil audit. Since i more and more interested in this field and so i felt very happy to join in this outstation. On the second day, the two boss in this office joined us as well and the second boss taught me a lot during the loose fruit audit. Since last time, i felt actually he is quite nice boss and not like what others said so, and so this time let me feel that he really quite good actually. Some of them said that because of my boss is Mr Sin and so he so nice to me but is it really like that?? Perhaps. But anywhere, i think i should learn from my boss that never trust and believe what other people say except i experienced it by myself.

Today is the last day for this trip and i had the opportunity to learn and chat with a senior there. And also let me found out something that i hope it is not real but if really real, then im sure this really wake me up completely. Will really let me believe that never trust anyone!!! From this trip, let me realized a few things as well. Anywhere, i also don't know how and what should i do but i think i will choose just let it be. I'm a human who will tired also, can't always be the contributor actually so just let it la.

Yesterday im had been felt very scare and worry of my own, but i don't know how to face it and i don't have the gut to face it as well. One thing for sure is i different, my thinking and value also different, and so i should not compare it. But sometimes i really don't know why??!!! Arghhhhh!!!
Lee Kuan Yee, just let it!!!!!! You will be ok one day!!!

Am i right or wrong???

Sometimes when i grow up and up, i feel like i can't differentiate what is right and what is wrong already. Actually i hate the most is people gossiping about others and those close with me also know about it. They know that i don't like gossip just like my rumie had been asked me before why never heard me gossip about others. And so, once i came into this office, those people gossip here and there cause me so dislike the environment here but now i feel like im doing that. Once i know how that people is, in my mind just let me thinking how to help my buddy and so i asked my cousin if got such situation, how to handle it till my cousin so worry and thought is me but then i said not me, then only she feel glad. But she scolded me for care for others since this is none of my business. But yet i really cant ignore it, cos she is my buddy and i hope to help but it seem not so easy to help. And so i decided to tell her what had her head done but then cause her now so angry and just let me feel like i shouldn't do so actually. But if i am her, i very angry also but i will not let them to bully me. If that is my job and i did it, i wont let him to take it for granted. Whether that is small or big task, if im the one who do, i must let my boss know that is i do it and not others. Like this, only fair!!! But for another one, he really too over, he shouldn't told the outsider about that!!! Ishhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! So wanna to scold him for being so busybody!!! Arghhhhhhhhh!!!!!! Really don't know what i did is right or wrong?? I think in some sense is right but in the other sense is wrong.

T.T

What a sad day for me???

I had been long long time didnt been like today. So angry and sad till can cry when driving and drive superb reckless!!!!

An Awesome Friendship!!!

Today is my first time attend such a grand meeting with all the top managements. Im really felt very glad for given the chance to attend and listen how it is. It is really very different from those meeting. It is so awesome, when there are arguement, i noticed that my boss will try to cool down the situation.

Apart from this, i also noticed that the friendship between my boss, Mr Sin and Mr Chong is so good and awesome. The way they treat and talk to each other, really let me realized and believe that a truth friendship really can be built up between colleague!!! Frank to say i also very glad to have such a good friend in this office but sometimes her action do let me feel very sad and disappointed and so i had been wondering is she really take me as best friend??? Moreover, my friend told me before that is better don't be so close with colleague, they said im too good and naif, scare that i will be cheated and hurt one day since they know that i will treat friend better than to myself. But yet i really can't doing so, because i really had taken her as my best friend. From the meeting and what i saw, let me believed that a truth friendship can really be built up also between colleague and so im sure we also can be. Although i don't know what actually you are thinking but i just want to tell you that i had choose to trust you and this friendship earlier since when you gave me the assurance and so i will never change except you did something hurt me badly like cheat me. I really hope that we can be like them in the future if we still work together. Im sure when you saw the situation just now, you will also feel very great and awesome.

人生。。。

人生
它的无常
它的变化
真让我感到害怕
感到恐惧
也让我不知所措。。。

Something meaningful and happy!!!

Opps, forgot to mentioned that finally today i did a meaningful and happy thing!!! After called them for twice, finally i managed to do so!!!

p/s: Tomorrow is grandma 3/7. So sorry that i cant go back and pray but i will pray here. Tonight i misssssss u so much, my lovely and dearest grandma!!! Ur cutie laughter will always in my heart forvever and ever!!! <3

不想长大！！！

人往往就是那么的矛盾。 小时就很希望能快点长大， 当长大了却一直想念着以前小的时候。 我也不例外。 可是， 那全都只能在想像中， 最后还是的回到现实。 经过这几年， 我不能不说我真的长大了， 但有一样是没变的， 每次还得犯同样的错。 直到今年， 也因为太多的考验， 让我不得不改因为我已无法承受了。 可是对我来说的确很难改因为我太重视了。